Since the holiday, I have been eating a lot of things and (without shame) enjoying every bit of it. The holidays have always been the time of the year when I happily enjoy eating a lot and not really caring if I gained weight. But this year there was some worry if I’m going to gain back the weight I lost several months ago. I was alright at Christmas and took care of what I ate but the New Year was like food paradise. I ate every single dish that my mom cooked and within the next two days, I could feel the weight coming back and for the first time, I felt a little bit disappointed that I have gained the weight back so fast as it took me to lose it.
That is why I am so determined to lose it now because knowing me, I will have the ‘there is still tomorrow to start’ mentality. I need to lose this weight now before it gets out of control. I had already started exercising in the mornings with the dumbbells and on the stationary bike but then my stomach and my persistent and easily tempted sweet tooth saw the holy grail of calorie intake staring back at me.
The can of half full condensed milk!
Yes, CONDENSED MILK! It was right there and tempting me to have a spoonful but secretly knowing I will finish a quarter of it in the span of three days. I honestly do not know what came over me and as I write this blog post, I feel so ashamed. I have tried to avoid finishing it and I knew deep down that if I had even a teaspoon, I will get addicted to it! I can put my hand up now and admit to having a slight relapse to eating condensed milk.
But since the New Year’s food is nearly all gone (thank God), the exercise and lessening food intake will also follow and I can lose some weight and feel more healthy again. Wish me luck everyone and here is to a healthy 2018.
As you guys know I have finished all of my university essays and I am on a mission in finding the next adventure: a job. So far, the mission hasn’t been as successful or as quick as I would like it to be but I know that this takes time and I need to consider the different options that are available.
Another mission I have right now is trying to lose some weight. I have been stuck at 56 kilograms since I was 16 and because of everything happening, I haven’t had the chance to lose the weight. I know I didn’t have much of an excuse before and without university, I haven’t got any excuse now not to exercise. My goal weight would be 52 kilos or even less at around 45 kilos. This mission of losing weight will benefit me in so many ways. Firstly, it will really help with my self-esteem and how I see myself right now. The areas I want to improve are my stomach, my arms and my thighs. By improving those areas, I think I will like my body more because I will be able to feel lighter. I have always internally felt unhealthy but I always made up an excuse not to do anything about it. But now I have the chance to improve myself on the outside and on the inside too.
Secondly, by losing some weight I can prove to myself that I can do it if I put my mind to it. I have always dismissed the fact that by running for 15 minutes a day I can lose some weight even if it’s only a couple of grams. I always make excuses or if I do exercise, it will only be for a day or two then I’ll give up. Also, the fear of having an asthma attack has gotten in my head to the point that I will stop exercising as soon as I get out of breath. I have been told not to push myself too hard as I could have an asthma attack if I do.
However, since I have been going on the treadmill, I have been able to train myself to run for at least 2 minutes and rest for 5 minutes which will allow my heart to slow down back to normal before I repeat the process again. I haven’t had to use my inhaler so far so that’s a good sign. I have also made a rule that after every meal and after exercising, I will need to drink 2 big glasses of water. I haven’t been drinking much water before even at school but it has really made a difference to how I’ve been feeling and making sure I’m getting all the waste out of my system and staying hydrated.
I have also recently started on my arms today so I can try and lose some flab in all the areas I want to improve on. The exercise experience has been going well so far and even when I reach my goal weight I will make sure I maintain my weight and improve my eating habits (which I still have trouble doing lol). I will keep you posted on how I am progressing and if I am able to lose the weight and get down to my goal. I will give an update in two months. Just gotta keep running!