Famous

Day after Day, we fight
Always in the dark, never the light
Been going on for years, not wanting forever
Sticking it out for the social, they want us together
Gonna become famous, but we both cannot win
We can not have it all, no matter how much we sin
Cause you are the Player, Mr Bad Boy, you play the game
I’m the shy girl, so friggin needy and clingy, what a shame
We have the looks and the style, but in the end its a battle of brain
Cause once this is all over, I will bathe in sunshine and make it rain
I hate to be the one to tell you, but you must know I never lose
You’re the people’s prince but in the end, it is the Queen they choose.
So are you ready for reality, do you think you can handle
The amount of trouble I bring, cause I’m tomorrow’s scandal
“Shy Girl Comes Out of her Shell- Was The Romance Just Pretend?
Cause she’s been snogging off Mr Bad Boy’s long time best friend
Sorry honey, you have been so blinded, you look like such a mess
I have no feelings for you, boo- fame is a bitch and that’s just lust I guess

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I’m Glad You Found Someone Else… Cause It Wasn’t Meant To Be.

What I learned from a Job Interview Everyone Else Wanted For Me

Yay, I graduated but now what? The question that goes through my mind (and hopefully other graduates’ minds) once they have walked the stage and gotten that piece of paper. What am I gonna do now that ai have gotten a degree? I hated to think about it but damn, I should have really thought about it sooner. But I have never been a decisive person and making decisions takes a lot of planning. Of course, I have a job now and I really enjoy working there as it is minimum hours and a late start (but it also means minimum wages). As much s you love a job, you also need the money to survive and buy necessities like shaving cream and driving lessons (yes I know, I still haven’t booked those yet but that’s for another blog post!). So, I have been looking at other job options that are part-time that I can do alongside my current job role.

I found several jobs in the local area and out of the ten jobs I applied for, one came to the forefront and we clung to it. The job was at a great location, at a top-notch building and the pay was something anyone would have jumped at. They have shortlisted me and invited me in for an interview. Everyone was very excited and of course, I was too (as well as nervous). They all wanted this job for me and my sister kept telling me “You better at this, Trisha”. But as you know from the title of this blog post, I didn’t get it.

At first, I was disappointed and upset that they didn’t pick me and I couldn’t get the reasons why. I doubted myself and looked up articles on my employers don’t pick you. I looked over my preparation (which wasn’t that great if I’m honest as I had higher priorities in my mind at the time) and then looked at alternative scenarios I could have done differently. Maybe I should have been selfish and focused on my interview preparation rather than spending my time making Vanessa’s surprise birthday as best as she deserves to have. Maybe if I didn’t spend so much money on it, I wouldn’t be looking for another job or maybe I should have forfeited my own sister’s happiness so I can get a job that pays more. But I know deep down, I didn’t want that. Vanessa deserves a lot (even if she is mean sometimes) and I won’t ever sacrifice someone’s happiness just so I can have more money. After all, happiness or money doesn’t grow on trees and money doesn’t make you happy, your family does.

Besides, as good as the job sounded it probably wouldn’t have lasted anyways because I know that this was the first interview where I showed my true self. I shared my opinions and was the most talkative I have ever been in my job interviews so far. I answered the questions with honesty and creatively. I admitted my faults and highlighted my ability to be humble and approachable. But in the end, my lack of customer experience and skills let me down. Well (not to sound bitter or salty) but I think that it really wasn’t meant to be and I am so relieved that they found the right person to suit that position and it wasn’t me.

After I got the rejection email, I stared at it and I felt disappointed that I didn’t get it and the first thing I thought was that “you idiot Trisha! You let them down”. I was so upset that my family will be upset but deep down I ended up crying in relief because as much as they would have wanted me to have that job, in truth I didn’t want it. So it didn’t matter what went wrong or what I could have done differently because a part of me knew I wasn’t going to be happy there. This was just like a relationship that you tried to make work but you knew that it wasn’t the highest priority so you clung onto it hoping it will work out in the end but it just wasn’t meant to be. You go through what went wrong and you come to the conclusion that if they are not going to appreciate you for qualities you have then thank the Lord, he didn’t will for it to continue any further and you can move on.

This was definitely a learning experience and I will wholeheartedly take all their feedbacks on board. I wish them all the best. As much as this may cause some sadness, I’m glad I didn’t allow myself to settle for something far less than I deserve.

Ants Fable

A little tale about a tale about ants that my mother told me…

We woke up to an ant infestation. My little sister, Bea was panicking because the ants are trying to attack her by crawling on her arm. She was also annoyed and distressed that ants are invading her playhouse and she doesn’t understand where they are coming from. I told her its okay and we were just going to vacuum them up later because I still need to make breakfast. I left her there and soon she was screaming again because she wanted to go to the kitchen but her path was blocked by a dozen ants walking back and forth looking for stray crumbs or bits of fluff they are able to carry to their undiscovered home. I had to help her across so she can go to the kitchen but was, of course, met with the dilemma of crossing the same line to go back into the living room again. Anyways, I finished making breakfast and Bea was eager to report the ant infestation to my mum who had just come down the stairs. My mum told her that it’s okay and that once breakfast is finished we will sort it out.

*cue moral story about ants*

While we were having breakfast, my mum just randomly said that she felt sorry for the ants because they are being killed. She said that the ants are so cold in the winter that they hibernate under the soil just so they can survive and once summer comes around the soil will be too hot and just like people they want to enjoy the hot weather but instead people are trying to kill them by vacuuming them up or drowning them with wet wipes or water (which is really sad if you really think about it). This got me thinking about the little ants’ feelings and how we need to let them enjoy their summer holidays too (although they did eat the lemon cake and have been hanging around and on the dining room table for 2 weeks now).

So, the moral of the story is that ants shouldn’t be killed because they have lives and (families) too, so they deserve a little break… unless they start eating the food again then that is when I draw the line! 

The Truth About You

Nothing beats the sound of your voice
Since you left, it’s all quiet, no noise
You left for good and never came back
You left and took all the things I now lack
So I might as well tell you how I feel
Time to wake up from my fantasy and get real
We had our time, from beginning to end
I’m glad you are no longer my friend
You just walk by and ignore me
Telling me to cheer up and think its funny
But really get serious, I really got hurt
Expecting me to sit here and get treated like dirt
Well, I say, enough is enough, Stop!
You are so over the top
I mean look at you?
You look like poo
Your hair turned brown then black
You look like a burnt flapjack
I call your name, can’t you hear?
Maybe you should clean your ears, dear!
As for your behaviour, you are going wild
You act like a really spoilt child
My sister’s friend is a bit of a pain
But at least, he’s got a bigger brain
One more thing, have you seen where apologies lurk?
Don’t care says you…the big-headed, two-faced jerk
So I would like to say goodbye
See you when pigs fly!
Just go and play with your stupid gadgets and toys
Make sure you share with your mates, the other cocky boys

Reality Check

You are getting on my nerve
It’s time to get what you deserve
You use your words as your shield
But here is the new winner in the field
You may have won before a long time ago
But the winner is here, time to go
Your shield is starting to rust
Excuse me, miss, if you must
Open your eyes, I’m not invisible
You may be strong but I’m invincible
I have my defence for your attack
Your reflection is not you, your mirror is about to crack
You’ll never be the fairest of them all
The guards tell you to head home from the ball
You continue to speak, always in a rush
Shut your mouth right now, hush!
You strut around like you’re the Queen
You talk to boys and make them scream
Your touch is starting to die, no effect
I have my own shield, deflect!
You had the swagger and the style
Let’s be honest, you can only get that for a while
Are you embarrassed? You’ve gone pale
Your words and actions have gone stale
You are nothing but a fool
You may impress but you’ll never rule
So bow down to the new winner
Pray to the Lord, cause girl you’re a sinner
I have won, there is nothing else to tell
Let’s hope you are forgiven, so you don’t go to Hell.