Someone Loves You

There are lessons we need to learn
Yet we need the money to earn
So we can buy and we can strive
Living a life to prove we can survive
We grew older wishing we were small
Knowing that every step could lead to a fall
A fall that a kiss or a plaster cannot fix
And then having to inspect our bag of tricks
For a miracle or a hope, for our dream
Why can all we hear is the scream
Of our thoughts crying in pain
Of our hearts going insane
From all the feelings we have suppressed
Then people asking why are we depressed
They don’t understand what goes in our mind
Of all the dangerous moments that follows us behind
How we quiver in conflict and avoid fear
How we fake a smile and stop the tear
That could flood the bath and our lungs
How we drunk the bleach more than once
The times we held a knife or the rope
Praying for a single strand of hope
To take our hand and away from the edge
Of the glass, the pills or the ledge
To tell us that it will be okay
That one day the anxieties will go away
But for now, know that you and I are not alone
Please speak to someone and dial a number on your phone
Yesterday, Today or Tommorrow may not seem fine
But please talk to someone on the suicide helpline.


We all have anxieties and are going through a lot in our lives that can seem overwhelming. Please know that someone loves you and would be happy to listen to whatever you are going through, even if it is some stranger on the phone. There are a lot of information on the numbers you can call to reach the suicide helpline team in your country.

You are not alone, even if it feels like that now. You are loved. 

 

Would You Restart

If you could do it again, would you restart?
Back to the day with an open heart
When you had innocence and a youthful glow
When you believed relationships will work out and grow
To the day, he kissed you in the rain
To now, where you ache from the pain
To the day he visited you, just because
Now, he is telling you your endless flaws
How you could never do anything right
Why is it so dark when it is still light?
How other girls would worship at his feet
Was this really the guy you were destined to meet?
Remember the day he was at work, you’re all alone
Went to take a shower and left your phone
He came home and found some texts
Flashing endlessly from your ex
He stormed into the room and broke down the door
Pulled you from the shower and threw you on the floor
He screamed at you and said ‘You’re Dead!’
Then grabbed the shower and struck you on the head
Multiple times until you start to bleed
He continued on despite the multiple times you plead
You just laid there for who knows how long
Not even knowing what the heck you did wrong
The following day, everything seemed fine
He made breakfast for you: the girl who is mine
You never discussed what happened, he won’t tell
Warned you if you go against your vows, you’ll go to hell
Since then more blood was shed and seen
He hit you again yesterday, number seventeen
You want to let go, you want to leave
If it wasn’t for the news, you just received
Maybe if you tell him, you will no longer be a bother
How in nine months time he will become a father
You will be happy and all the hurt will wash away
You will be an amazing family one day
Unfortunately, this story will have to be cut short
Because he demanded that you immediately abort
Your unborn child barely two weeks old
You shook your head and refused to do what you’re told
You stood up to him and said ‘NO’
Then went to pack your bags so you can go
Far away from this house and from him
That’s when his patience started to dim
He pinned you against the wall told you to reconsider
You pushed him away and BANG he pulled the trigger
You fell on the bed and saw blood on your chest
Then place a hand on your belly and caressed
The human inside you that never got a chance
To see the world or experience romance
From someone who knows how a woman should be treat
You close your eyes and feel defeated
But deep down a part of you can now flee
You are now after a long time finally free
If you could do it again would you restart?
If you knew it all ends with an empty heart…

Death Will Win

A girl who decided to promise her life to Death
In twenty-four hours she’ll take her final breath
She needs someone to show her the light
To free her and hold her tight
She stares into the dark, swimming in red
If you don’t go now, she’ll soon be dead
She’s crying softly, here comes the rain
Death is knocking, she’s gonna go insane
Come to her and she might let you in
If you don’t, then Death will win!

*for World Suicide Awareness Day*

Freckles

I once had a fish named Freckles
He loved nothing more than doing heckles
Once the dog said: “Why are you so tiny?”
Freckles replied: “What’s it to you, Whiny?”
The cat once told him he is about to be eaten
Freckles stared him down, he wasn’t about to be beaten
He got out of the fish tank and clapped his fins
He walked towards Tommy the Cat and gave a devilish grin
We haven’t seen the cat in years but we found his third paw
Inside Freckles fish tank sitting there with his nails from his claw
Freckles was using them to clean his teeth and scratch his ass
The parrot stopped talking, Freckles must have given him some sass
One day, Freckles went all green and he got bigger and bigger
Then we saw the rat climb on his fish tank and pull the trigger
Of the plug, the water began to be drained until Freckles was on the floor
Soon, my dear Freckles was face to face with the slightly strained toilet door
My sister lifted it up and down went Freckles in the swirly, murky toilet water
Then she started screaming as the lid lifted up and something sharp caught her
There stood a scaly beast that reached the roof and its eyes looked at us two
I promise you, my reader, this story is one hundred percent, absolutely true!
So I have a now have a full grown CROCODILE named Freckles
He ate my sister but he is really good at heckles.

Determined

So many things have changed I have lost count
So many things to do and it’s starting to mount
Changes have come and doors start to open
The time has passed and so much has happened
Life has been hectic I had to run to keep up
Gotta keep on running until I reach the top
Now I am here there is no chance of slowing
Too much perseverance gotta keep on going!

HAPPINESS

How do you do it every single day?
A piece of your heart you have to give away
Pleasing everyone is not the best thing
Pleasing yourself has a nicer ring
In this world, we need more laughter and smiles
Nothing can compare to how the sun shines for miles
Every day you can make a change by living a positive life
Simply ignore the bad memories and moments of strife
So, you can think more about yourself, never less
…Don’t allow others to downplay your happiness! 

End of Conversation- I Forgot

You pretend that everything is okay
So they don’t have to leave or go away
If they asked you: “What do you regret?”
You’d tell them of the memories that you’d never forget
Like that sweet kiss in the rain
Your broken heart and the severe pain
The time you texted but they never replied
The times you locked the door and cried
You thought it would somehow just disappear and fade
Hoping it will erase the memories that are already made
Sometimes you try to rid of it all, then you see his face
You remember his kiss, his smile and that warm embrace
The days he didn’t want to let you go
You were going too fast but time is so slow
The rush and risks faded away
One day, will someone ever stay?
Days when you were sad and they were right there
Times when they ask you if you’re okay like they care
But then the day came when memories started to fade
When suddenly something decided to be made
Both of them decided to come and state their love is true
You thought about it but do you really love them too?
You have to be polite, say “No”, just agree to be friends with them
To be their secret jewel and the precious one-of-a-kind gem
You took the risks that could get you in trouble
You took the blames, bruises, wounds and stumbles
You did everything because you wanted them in your life
But now you have to choose before the drop of a knife
Up until this day you still cannot decide
You can’t run and you could never hide
They are so far away that you have to travel
Crossing roads, building walls and kicking gravel
Are you willing to be hurt like before?
Can friends now be later something more?
If they saw you standing across the street
Would they avoid you or invite you to meet?
Are they feeling what is true or is it just pretend?
Do they want something more than just being friends?
Right now you do not know how to feel
These feelings you are trying to conceal
But one day you might find out who is true and who is not
End of conversation: “What were we talking about cause I forgot”