I’m Glad You Found Someone Else… Cause It Wasn’t Meant To Be.

What I learned from a Job Interview Everyone Else Wanted For Me

Yay, I graduated but now what? The question that goes through my mind (and hopefully other graduates’ minds) once they have walked the stage and gotten that piece of paper. What am I gonna do now that ai have gotten a degree? I hated to think about it but damn, I should have really thought about it sooner. But I have never been a decisive person and making decisions takes a lot of planning. Of course, I have a job now and I really enjoy working there as it is minimum hours and a late start (but it also means minimum wages). As much s you love a job, you also need the money to survive and buy necessities like shaving cream and driving lessons (yes I know, I still haven’t booked those yet but that’s for another blog post!). So, I have been looking at other job options that are part-time that I can do alongside my current job role.

I found several jobs in the local area and out of the ten jobs I applied for, one came to the forefront and we clung to it. The job was at a great location, at a top-notch building and the pay was something anyone would have jumped at. They have shortlisted me and invited me in for an interview. Everyone was very excited and of course, I was too (as well as nervous). They all wanted this job for me and my sister kept telling me “You better at this, Trisha”. But as you know from the title of this blog post, I didn’t get it.

At first, I was disappointed and upset that they didn’t pick me and I couldn’t get the reasons why. I doubted myself and looked up articles on my employers don’t pick you. I looked over my preparation (which wasn’t that great if I’m honest as I had higher priorities in my mind at the time) and then looked at alternative scenarios I could have done differently. Maybe I should have been selfish and focused on my interview preparation rather than spending my time making Vanessa’s surprise birthday as best as she deserves to have. Maybe if I didn’t spend so much money on it, I wouldn’t be looking for another job or maybe I should have forfeited my own sister’s happiness so I can get a job that pays more. But I know deep down, I didn’t want that. Vanessa deserves a lot (even if she is mean sometimes) and I won’t ever sacrifice someone’s happiness just so I can have more money. After all, happiness or money doesn’t grow on trees and money doesn’t make you happy, your family does.

Besides, as good as the job sounded it probably wouldn’t have lasted anyways because I know that this was the first interview where I showed my true self. I shared my opinions and was the most talkative I have ever been in my job interviews so far. I answered the questions with honesty and creatively. I admitted my faults and highlighted my ability to be humble and approachable. But in the end, my lack of customer experience and skills let me down. Well (not to sound bitter or salty) but I think that it really wasn’t meant to be and I am so relieved that they found the right person to suit that position and it wasn’t me.

After I got the rejection email, I stared at it and I felt disappointed that I didn’t get it and the first thing I thought was that “you idiot Trisha! You let them down”. I was so upset that my family will be upset but deep down I ended up crying in relief because as much as they would have wanted me to have that job, in truth I didn’t want it. So it didn’t matter what went wrong or what I could have done differently because a part of me knew I wasn’t going to be happy there. This was just like a relationship that you tried to make work but you knew that it wasn’t the highest priority so you clung onto it hoping it will work out in the end but it just wasn’t meant to be. You go through what went wrong and you come to the conclusion that if they are not going to appreciate you for qualities you have then thank the Lord, he didn’t will for it to continue any further and you can move on.

This was definitely a learning experience and I will wholeheartedly take all their feedbacks on board. I wish them all the best. As much as this may cause some sadness, I’m glad I didn’t allow myself to settle for something far less than I deserve.

You did it, Mr Llama!!

Oh My Geoffery! After three years, you have just gone and finished your degree and going to graduate next month. Where did the time go? I am so proud of you, Hun. I know this will probably be really cheesy (but we like cheese) and filled with PDAs but I don’t care cause my awesome boyfriend is done with university. Woohoo! The last three years has been a total adventure filled with more random phrases and plenty of emotions. There were a lot of laughter and long conversations and some tears shed too. But despite everything, you just persevered and you have finally reached the end of your university journey.

I feel so proud of you and all the things you have achieved so far and I look forward to seeing you achieve even more wonderful things in the years to come. I am so glad I met you and got the courage to talk to you 4 years ago at the bus stop outside of Sixth Form. In the 4 years, I have gotten to know you, you have constantly been a positive influence and always willing to fill people’s life with happiness. You want to make people smile and you hate being part of conflict (something which has been tested several times during the three years of uni). The three years have been fairly difficult and you have expressed feeling upset or outcast but even then you did not let any of the negativity get to you and you made the best of all the worst situations. I admire your motivation to stay true to yourself and never let anyone belittle your views or close your mind up to the opinion of others. You went through a lot of emotions during all the years of your university journey but you have done so well to manage everything even it did require some extensions. I am so happy you can now celebrate and breathe away all the stress and just embrace the freedom of a university graduate (graduation next month), I am so excited for you.

Another thing that was tested was our relationship as we didn’t know how a long distance relationship was gonna play out as we both didn’t have a job so getting to see each other and hanging out was going to be difficult. For three years, we made do with calls, texts and Skype as our form of communication and there have been a few arguments about when will we get to meet up. I know it was frustrating and took a lot of patience before we got to see each other again on February 16 of this year lol. But I really thought it was worth it and even if it was a long time waiting, getting a few hours to spend with you was so magical. (so magical that I cried for two days after you left haha). Our relationship has gone through a lot of ups and downs, we have created new meanings for words and we have had our fights and random moments but all in all, I couldn’t be happier having you as part of my life, if not physically but mentally and emotionally. I hope to make more memories with you, my darling Llama King. I love you so much. No words can express how much I adore you and appreciate all the things we have experienced so far.

You are an amazing person/llama and I am so proud and happy of all your success stories so far and I am sure there will be plenty more now that you have ticked off getting a degree from your list. The world better be ready for Mr Llama, (soon-to-be) Philosophy, Politics and Ethics BA Hons Graduate to conquer the world as a musician/lawyer/teacher/pirate/gangsta fish/ whatever you chooses to do lol. So, I hope you enjoy your little break before and after graduation with your friends and family.

Go and show the rest of the world your swagtastic and chuggarific powers!

One Month of Job Hunting

I can’t believe it has already been over a month since I submitted my dissertation, the month of May has ended and it is now June. That means I have been basically hunting for jobs for a month now. May has definitely been hectic and filled with stress and my right forefinger glued to the scroll down button as I skimmed passed hundreds and thousands of jobs on every single job websites you can think of. I feel like day after day my head would explode and sleep always won at the end as soon as my head hit the pillow. I wish I could say this journey had been fun so far but that would be lying.

At the start of the month, I was ready to jump into looking for work cause why waste time when there are plenty of opportunities available out there, right? I was so ready to go look for some work that will help me get ahead of everyone and gain some experience in an area where I hope to keep climbing. I wanted a job related to my degree, Media Studies, where I can feel that going to university and having £27,000 debt on my shoulders would pay off (and be paid off quickly). I was ready to go conquer the Media world like those beautiful people you see in the movies where they are so hyped about the next step of looking for work and they just get it like destiny made it that way. Unfortunately, sometimes reality isn’t like what you see in the movies and the world doesn’t want to co-operate with how you see your life playing out. There wasn’t much media related job in Cambridge and those that are available require previous experience (which I don’t have)and right now going off to London or some other place would be pointless since I don’t graduate until October. So what do you do when no jobs are available that suits your preferences? You go to the next related thing that will help you gain experience, Apprenticeships.

I applied for an apprenticeship before and I didn’t get that. So, I was not too sure if applying for more is a good idea. But it was worth a shot and it WILL help me gain training and make connections with more people in the industry so its a start. I applied for a lot of media-related apprentices in areas such as digital marketing and social media. I just wanted to find something to do which will help me gain money and just some experience in a workplace. I applied for five apprenticeships in total (so far) and received one phone call. I was so nervous getting a phone call as I hate talking to people on the phone but I did gather up the courage to phone them back (I missed it and it went to voicemail cause hungry lol) and they just asked me to send them an email about the modules I did at university. The email was sent off and I never received anything back from them which made me feel kinda sad. However, I knew there are other areas I can try going into even if this did end with a dead end.

One of those areas was doing an internship around Cambridge which was fairly difficult as there isn’t much of those here either but I knew no one will take me if it having experience that they are looking for. By this point in the job searching journey, I was feeling a little down that there wasn’t much happening and it is not happening as quickly as I had anticipated. I was also at the point of doubt and frustration as the only option ultimately will be an internship in London as there are dozens there. But even then and right now, I feel with how the world is going I need to hold off going further away but if it comes to graduation and I am still jobless, going to do an internship is still on the cards. In the meantime, my mum has suggested I go down a different path and see how I do in another career which is childcare as my work experience was a Playgroup Assistant. Many people have told me that I do so good with children so I thought I’d try it and maybe this is the path I was destined to discover. So, I have put aside all the media stuff for now and I applied for non-qualified nursery jobs and other childcare jobs such as playworker around my local area and Cambridge. I did apply for other various jobs such as a data entry clerk and an office assistant but I was rejected. But despite the rejection, at the end of May, I have been in communication with an agency which supplies teaching assistant and nursery assistant roles in various schools around Cambridge and my application and details are currently under clearance. I also had an interview for a playworker role in a primary school in Cambridge and another playworker role application form was filled out for another school in my local area. Everything is in the balance right now and I will update you guys with more information if I am successful or not. (either way, I am getting practice in doing interviews, making and answering phone calls and completing application forms so it is still benefitting me).

A month of job hunting has just finished and with the summer just around the corner, more days of job hunting is still to come. It is a long journey but hopefully a worthwhile one and it is all part of the adventures I will need to discover as part of life. Wish me luck guys and let’s see where this adventure will take me.