Diamonds are supposed to be a girl’s best friend but for me, it is more like a dark omen. All three of my ex-boyfriends gave me jewellery as their first gifts. It was all sweet at first and of course, I enjoy the little sparkle that jewellery can add to your outfit and those boys have a great taste in jewellery. It is only when the jewellery starts to break, rust or gets lost that signifies a symbol from God or something of high universal power that this relationship is about to come to an end. For instance, when my first boyfriend broke up with me, I chose to give back the gold bracelet he gave me as a” token of his love” (more on this in another post). He wasn’t offended I gave it back and many people were questioning why I didn’t just sell it on eBay but it was my decision so I handed it back to him. We were on and off flirting with each other and one day he was high or drunk and he mentioned how he wished I still had the bracelet. I said I didn’t want it and asked if he still had it. And surprise surprise (not), he didn’t know where it was…an expensive bracelet that was supposed to be a token of his love is forever lost- a bit like any feeling I may still have for him lol.
Then, my second boyfriend gave me a lovely necklace that was made of stretchy string, had beads threaded through it and had a moulded glass centrepiece in the shape of a heart (how romantic). I wore it every day and had it on my bedside table as I sleep at night. It lasted for 9 months and then the heart one day just broke in half (which was so ironic come to think of it). A couple of days later he broke up with me and I just knew it was some sort of sign. My third ex is a little different as I was the one who ended it with him but the necklace and earring combo (again very beautiful, expensive and often worn) had started to rust and there was a knot in the chain. Another sign that it wasn’t meant to be.
So, the lesson of the story is this: to my future boyfriend, wherever you are, whenever you will pop up in my life, please read this as a cautionary warning that jewellery leads to a break-up so don’t give me any jewellery as your first gift. (although know I do not have anything against jewellery being a second gift or a third gift etc…).
I know I haven’t been as active as I would like and I apologise for that with all my heart. I try my best to write and schedule posts when I can but I know I have been failing slightly on that front. That is why I have decided to open a series for this year that talks about my past adventures and things I have already discovered but haven’t shared with anyone. This probably defeats the purpose of this whole blog but right now, I feel compelled to write about the little things I still remember (before adulting fully takes over).
This series (still deciding on the name) will start on the 25th of February which marks my one year anniversary of The Undiscovered Adventures. It will talk about past relationships, friendships, conflicts etc… that are part of my life and the reason I made this blog in the first place. I have always been a quiet person and an introvert but I pride myself on being creative and I love telling stories. I have always wanted to do big things but recently I have come to realise that in order to do big things, I need to remember the small things first. I want to tell you my story on this platform, on my blog. I want to re-live my life as a 21 year old looking back on her life so far. I think that personally I am at the stage of my life where I tend to feel stuck and start to wonder more and more if maybe this is all life has for me but I can feel that there are so many opportunities available for me and many more adventures to discover and I can’t wait to see what’s to come.
So, please come and join me in revisiting past untold stories and finding out how these now discovered stories defined me, a 21 years old aspiring blogger who is going to make big things happen! Watch this space.
Peace and Love ✌🏽❤️
Peace and Love to everyone celebrating Valentine’s Day, both those in relationships and all you single peeps out there (like me). I can’t believe it’s the Valentine’s Day already. Last year I was planning a date with my then-boyfriend and a year later, I am single but NOT ready to mingle! At least not yet haha.
I hope everyone has a great day and go and leave me a comment what your plans for today will be cause it would be nice to feel the love ❤️
The mirror may be cracked, it may be broken
The crown was dusty but my heart has spoken
You’re from the past, you are just a freaking ghost
A guy so far away, dreaming of being on the coast
You tend to disappear to the point of being gone
Yet you’ll come back whispering that you’re the one
The one who’ll set me free, the one who’ll be there
As I sit here in my tower, I can’t find you anywhere
You have flown on your high horse, been riding the seven seas
Forgotten the princess you said you’ll come back for with ease
Now you have returned with the gold and a dress
Looking for the princess you left in distress
Can’t find her anywhere, you shouldn’t have lied
She has changed her mind, her love for you has died
While you lived your life, she has moved on
Think she’ll change back for you, you’re wrong
She sits on her throne, head held high
You plead with her, your mistakes- you deny
You are on your knees and pretend to be a lover’s fool
But this princess is Queen now, you know that she rules
This house, this kingdom, this land, this throne and you
You shouldn’t have declared your love if it is wasn’t true
She silences the people and tells you to get up- NOW!
She takes a sword and demands you to show respect, BOW!
She looks you in the eyes and you see her stare is ever so cold
Then pushes the sword in you, oh boy you have just been told!
You pretend that everything is okay
So they don’t have to leave or go away
If they asked you: “What do you regret?”
You’d tell them of the memories that you’d never forget
Like that sweet kiss in the rain
Your broken heart and the severe pain
The time you texted but they never replied
The times you locked the door and cried
You thought it would somehow just disappear and fade
Hoping it will erase the memories that are already made
Sometimes you try to rid of it all, then you see his face
You remember his kiss, his smile and that warm embrace
The days he didn’t want to let you go
You were going too fast but time is so slow
The rush and risks faded away
One day, will someone ever stay?
Days when you were sad and they were right there
Times when they ask you if you’re okay like they care
But then the day came when memories started to fade
When suddenly something decided to be made
Both of them decided to come and state their love is true
You thought about it but do you really love them too?
You have to be polite, say “No”, just agree to be friends with them
To be their secret jewel and the precious one-of-a-kind gem
You took the risks that could get you in trouble
You took the blames, bruises, wounds and stumbles
You did everything because you wanted them in your life
But now you have to choose before the drop of a knife
Up until this day you still cannot decide
You can’t run and you could never hide
They are so far away that you have to travel
Crossing roads, building walls and kicking gravel
Are you willing to be hurt like before?
Can friends now be later something more?
If they saw you standing across the street
Would they avoid you or invite you to meet?
Are they feeling what is true or is it just pretend?
Do they want something more than just being friends?
Right now you do not know how to feel
These feelings you are trying to conceal
But one day you might find out who is true and who is not
End of conversation: “What were we talking about cause I forgot”
I liked so many boys, I have lost count
Boys just kept on appearing, they are starting to mount
First, the boy who thought he was cool
But he turned out to be a stupid fool
Then there was the boy I fell in love with
Once I thought I needed him to live
He had brown eyes and loved me like no other
But he also hated my father, sister and mother
He turned ugly and he broke my heart
So we separated and fell apart
Then I liked a boy who loves to play
His guitar and just rock away
Followed by the boy who loves to give me a hug
He kept me warm and oh so snug
Then came the boy who called me ‘amigo’
He only liked me cause I gave him mentos
Then there was the boy who walked 15 miles
He was filled with lots of laughs and smiles
Then the boy who I sat next to in the most boring lesson
I never knew I liked him for any special reason
He just made me laugh and was genuinely funny
He was an over the top and very tall bunny
But none of them really worked out
Sometimes I wonder what it’s all about
I hope one day I find Mr Right
Who will let me dream well every night
When I find him, these boys will see
They are all losers cause they all lost me
They let go and moved on, they will never last
Because they are just the Boys of the Past!
I am tired of running after boys
Always ending up to be just their play toys
I always try to be positive every day
But would you be happy, if ALL your exes were Gay?
I went out with Tim, an awesome guy
Why did he turn out to be gay, why?
It was going so good, why did it have to be me?
Why did his ‘girlfriend’ have to be Lee?
Then there was Jim, a bad but fun guy
But why me, me oh my!
Now, here I am again with another boy
I am so filled with happiness and joy
This new guy’s called Kim
He first told me ‘Wow, you’re slim.’
And believe it or not, He is NOT Gay.
This has been such a great day
Finally, I found the perfect boyfriend
I really hope this will be the happy end
He is not Gay, He is Straight!
We went to the movies for our first date
He kisses really good, and damn he is fine
I’m so glad I can call him all mine
But I did find out something… and it’s making me re-think
Because when we went to his house, all his walls were pink!