*Warning do not read this if you are fond of animals or easily grossed out.*
One of my early memories is stepping on a fly trap. It was a horrible experience and something that I wouldn’t want to experience again. My Lola doesn’t like insects and flies have always been one of her pet peeves. She would place several fly traps all over the house. It had caught a few cockroaches and small spiders but no flies. But when I was really young I saw a rat under the table. I didn’t go near it and continued playing. A couple of days after this encounter, my Lola started screaming demanding something be taken away. I ran into the room and knew it was a mistake. There, on one of the fly papers was a dead rat who obviously got stuck whilst running around the house. I felt really bad and I still do. I don’t know if it was the same rat I saw but it made me feel uneasy that I played a part in its death. I want to apologise to that rat and his family and hope that he rests in peace.
Since coming back to Facebook after my detox for Lent 2017 and making a new account I have noticed a strange atmosphere to how people have been using (or should I say lack of using) the once-hyped social media platform. Back in my high school days, everyone were obsessed with turning 13 because that is the legal age to sign up for a Facebook account (even though most people would lie so they can make a profile even before they turn 13) and it was anticipated and cool once you have make a profile and made a lot of “friends”. I remember a time when my sister cried over the end of the world with the prime reason that she will never get the chance to sign up for Facebook (she hates it now haha).The social media platform took over from MySpace (which seems to be an ancient tale now in the more modern era) and it became a giant amongst other social media sites.
But now forward to present day and here I am more bored than ever with Facebook. No one is no longer on it 24/7 and those that are rarely post anything useful. People only post about major events like holidays or when they get pregnant or tied the knot. The games of FarmVille or Sims have already been forgotten and replaced with games that require you to interact with “friends” that you haven’t spoken to in 5 years. You end up liking random stuff after stuff and would scroll through hundreds of rubbish articles. It has become so repetitive that you groan at the screen every time your well-trained fingers automatically clicks on it. Facebook had tried so hard to keep up with the likes of Snapchat and Instagram when they included filters and Facebook stories (but unfortunately was too late in catching with the trends). I hate to be so pessimistic about this but soon I think Facebook will become extinct.
This will be probably not that surprising when it finally crashes down. Many people have been telling me that they will hardly miss it (even my parents refers to it as the evilest out of all the social media websites). I think Facebook has lived long enough and could very well join MySpace on the dark side of the online world. Give it another two years and maybe soon people will have forgotten this once loved social media phenomenon. I have come to realise that It was probably a bad mistake to make another account if I am just going to delete it again lol. Facebook could soon be joining the dinosaurs.
I mean think about it. Facebook has resulted in asking people for their nudes to ensure that those nude pictures don’t appear on their platform. Someone working at Facebook will be staring at your private areas and playing memory match in an instance that someone else (like a vengeful ex) posts it on Facebook. Think about it carefully.
Facebook will turn 14 next year (a year older than the required age for someone to sign up for the site) and I think it would be a good time for adolescent Facebook to retire or at least take a break.
A girl who decided to promise her life to Death
In twenty-four hours she’ll take her final breath
She needs someone to show her the light
To free her and hold her tight
She stares into the dark, swimming in red
If you don’t go now, she’ll soon be dead
She’s crying softly, here comes the rain
Death is knocking, she’s gonna go insane
Come to her and she might let you in
If you don’t, then Death will win!
*for World Suicide Awareness Day*
Once upon a time, that’s how the story starts
The tale of the Girl and Boy and their broken hearts
The Boy loved the Girl that was supposed to be his bride
He loved her so much that he pushed his family to the side
The Girl loved the boy, soon to be her groom
This would be a happy story, you might assume
The Boy loved her so much that he gave up his kingdom
The Girl loved him that she gave away her freedom
They loved each other and would sacrifice everything
He wanted her to be the Queen and him, her King
He loved her too much that he swore she is the one
That was how the story went until she disappeared, Gone!
He looked for her, searching for the Girl he was to marry
But he never did, the sun shone and the night sky starry
So he had to marry another girl, someone he did not love
He hoped to join his Queen when they meet in the clouds above
Little did he know, she was still alive, sane not crazy
His ex-bride wandered around with their small unborn baby
She went away to tell her family and then came
To see her beloved Boy with pride and joy, no shame
Some say it was bad timing and some say maybe it was bad luck
It was the wedding night, rain started to pour and lightning struck
The Girl sat in the church, not knowing the wedding was Boy’s and another
At the front of the altar, there stood his mother, father and brother
There she saw her Boy too, he looked handsome yet pale and grim
Then she turned and saw a girl in her dress, walk towards him
She was confused, she did not understand at first
As the ceremony took place, it became much worse
The vows were said and the rings on their finger
Represented how she is now just another stranger
That night Boy and Girl both cried
Their supposed love now has died
Girl found no use in living if their unborn baby has no father
Boy realised that Girl is the one for him, there can be no other
Girl took the knife and Boy took the poison
All three died but for a good reason
But all stories should come with a happy ending
So it shall, no strings, no pretending
Boy, Girl and their baby, stood together all happy and even
The Boy was right, they would finally meet again in heaven.
When someone leaves because they can’t stay
When someone is gone cause they have to go away
Just because they are gone, it doesn’t mean you should be sad
All you need to remember is the times you both had
You dream about them and wish they are there
When you look around, he seems to be everywhere
No matter how you try, he is not coming, gone forever
He is far away and you cannot see him, never
You feel lost, you feel like you want to cry
You feel like falling, why did he have to die?
But don’t waste your tears on something you can’t get
Sometimes it is easier if you just forget
Remember there are still many more doors you have to open
Don’t dwell on something that’s already happened
There are more opportunities, this is not the end
Forever you will cherish, the time you have spent
You need to keep him in your heart
Breathe and reach for a new start
The noise and pain might be really loud
Someday, you will make him really proud.
DEDICATED TO MY LATE GRANDFATHER/LOLO AL.
Boy likes Girl, Girl likes Boy too
Moments away from saying ‘I love you’
Boy has flowers and chocolate
Ready to declare his love at eight
Girl is getting ready for Boy to come
She knows he is the right one
On the way to her house, Boy saw a guy
He was there in an alleyway about to die
The Boy ran to help him but then….
Boy went down, hand on his heart
This was supposed to be the start
He looked up and saw Girl’s Ex and the guy alive
This was a trick, a kind of bribe
The doorbell rang and Girl opened it, she frowned
She looked around and then she felt like she drowned
Boy was lying on the ground
Knife to his heart, no sound
She cried over him and saw a note
It was from Boy, the last he wrote
Dear my love,
I have loved you since we became friends
But I really hope we can be more, it wouldn’t end
I have always wanted to say these three words
The three words which will make our world
If I died today,
I would want to say…
You are the one for me, my dream come true
Girl, I Love You!
Girl looked at him and took the knife from his heart
Girl loves him too, Girl cannot let them be apart
Who would care If I was to die?
Who would give a damn to find out why?
Who would cry on my deathbed?
Who would pray to God instead?
Who would give blood to make me alive?
Who would wish I survived?
Who would find out what killed me in the end?
Who would fight those who want to defend?
Doctors say that my heart suddenly stopped beating
I died whilst I was sleeping
No one cared or bothered to check my heart
No one wondered if it could restart
If they looked at it closely, they would have no doubt
I didn’t die from the poison within but the love without.