Ever had anyone who suddenly comes into your school and jumps into your friendship group like it was an okay thing to do? Well, I have (twice). I am a friendly person and is open to being kind to you and being friends with you. But after a while, she had a vibe about her. I am normally good at sensing people’s aura but I think there was a delay or something. She came to high school in the third year and she jumped into the friendship circle I was in. I was okay with her for a little bit and stayed friends with her until the end. But it was the little things she said to me and did that questioned how much of a friend she really is:
- My first boyfriend broke up with me and she confessed later that she found him very cute and fancied him when she first started but saw he was with me and decided to stay away.
- I told her that I fancy this guy in confidence and she went out to ask him out for me but ended up “accidentally” asking him out for herself.
- We were supposed to be in a group for our final drama performance and she was telling me how she is extremely reluctant to work with this guy in our group. The day came when the drama teacher asked us to form our groups and I looked like a right idiot sitting there by myself when she moved to another group. She didn’t tell me anything about moving but she casually apologised a week later (like that makes it okay) *
- I joked about her looking like one of the traffic lights when she wore a red dress to prom and she was sat next to two other people wearing orange and green (one of which was actually me). She didn’t like that and snubbed our table to hang out with other people for the rest of the event.
- She moved to the Sixth Form college I went to and again (she did it twice!) hanged out with my friendship group I was in and acted like I was being distant. (I ended up leaving that friendship group after they all showed their true colours).
- I invited her to my 18th birthday party, she sang me a song and at the end of the evening, she didn’t thank me and I haven’t heard from her since.
I know that when I had started having bad vibes about her that I should have walked away much sooner and not welcomed her as my friend. But seriously, if I had just walked away I would have been the one seen as bitchy and I didn’t want that. Also, I know that being an angsty teenager I tend to have bad days and so I thought maybe I was just reflecting my problems on her (my sister also admitted she got that vibe about her when I told her about this post) but I just had a gut feeling that I am right. This experience taught me to be cautious of people who claim to be my “friend” because sometimes their intentions are not real.
*I will post a follow-up story to explain more about this drama project and my ex-friend.
Eyes rolling and she starts to tut
Has you around her finger and mouth shut
Cannot move cause you are wrapped in thorns
Tell yourself she’s an angel with horns
Yet you give your heart, never speak your mind
She has your eyes covered from behind
Cannot see her wandering into sin
She stares at you, you never win
She walks around you like a puddle
Boy you need to wake up from the muddle
From the cloud, the mist, the fog
She has been out kissing lots of dogs
Every night, every moment, every day
Mate, she is far out, been led astray
By filthy boys who give her time
While you work the dollar and the dime
She goes off knowing you’re not home
She has already declared you all alone
Act now before its too late
Cannot sit, please don’t wait
For your lover is already in bed
Under the sheets, giving head
She does it all the time, didn’t you know
For the last two years, you’ve been with a hoe.
You’re FIRED! You are not welcome anymore
Oh, stop being a baby and let the tears pour
You may think I care but I don’t at all
I knew this would happen, I knew you’d fall
Yes, it started with you being a star
These chaos and stupidity has gone too far
Before you were loved but look at you now
Pack your bags, Tidy your office, you are such a cow
Look. Here comes the boss. You are gonna get thrown out
Just stay silent, we all know what it’s all about
Wait a minute… why is he walking towards me?
The boss said: You’re FIRED! You total wannabee!
What?! This is not fair. Why am I getting fired?!
Because you are a bitch and we are getting tired
Tired of your ridiculous advice and constant bragging
Why did you always have to keep on f***ing nagging?!
You are not the Queen, we don’t need you to stay
You are so annoying and loud, now go away!
No! Don’t even beg. The boss made his decision and there is no doubt
Go on then… pack your bags, tidy your office and make sure you stay out!
I gave you my love and my body
I gave you laughs and our own parody
I gave you plenty of kisses and hugs
I gave you all my secrets on the rugs
I gave you hints that I want you
I had no doubt you want me too
I gave you everything so we can be together
I gave you my world and all you say is “Whatever”
I gave you passionate kisses and you say “It’s okay”
You talk so much about your best mate…Dude are you gay?
You talk so much about her and your past
You talk more about that bitch and I’ll be your last
You talk and talk and talk some more
But now it’s my turn, you’re a real bore
Let me list all the things you can’t have
Even if you want it so much, bruv!
You can’t have my perky breasts
Unless you grow some hair on your chest
You can’t have my kisses with tongue
Do you even know what you’ve become?
You can’t have the time that has passed
You certainly can’t have my beautiful ass
You can’t have the thing between my legs
No matter how you crawl, plead or even beg
I am through being lover’s fool
I’d rather date a dying mule
I’d rather stay single forever
Just face it, we can’t be together
Because I’m uptight and you’re just wrong
Grow some abs darling, you’ll never be strong
You think you were winning before
Well, not anymore, close the f***ing door
I don’t want to see your face
I don’t need your sweaty embrace
I don’t want your small dick
Get a life cause you are just a prick
Let me tell you I am amazing in bed
I can really mess with a boy’s head
So unless you can still grow your stick
Time is running out so be quick
Before I let you have me in your room
Before this “relationship” can resume
I have one rule in the plan
I only give my body to a man
So since you are not that, let’s say “Adios”
You are just the garbage boy, I want the BOSS!
He looked at me for a minute or two
I’m obsessed with him but he hasn’t got a clue
I need him so badly, he needs to be mine
He is so cute and extremely fine
He just broke up with his leading lady
They went out now he’s gone crazy
to get her back in his arms
Needs to bring his cool and his charms
But really she doesn’t care one bit
She already has her eyes on a boy so fit
Why does he still run after this bitch?
He needs to be free from that wicked witch
Why can’t he see there are other girls here?
Right in front of him, oh so near
He doesn’t need her anymore
Time to open another door
But why can’t he see me?
Staring at him like a bee
There is still time for him and me to meet
Just need to stand and find our feet
Once we are finally together
Everything will be happily ever after.
You think you are all that
But you have no volume, too flat
When you walk, the boys stare up the street
You continue to walk on with your two left feet
Wearing high heels and a short skirt
Thinking you’re sexy when you are only dirt
You batter your eyelashes for guys
You’re so ugly, they go cross-eyes
You wear too much make-up, you clown
Making all the boys, fall and frown
They want a girl who can laugh
Be gone, darling! They had enough
They want a girl who knows it best
A girl who can work the mattress
So leave, Go! I hate to bust your bubble
Make way for me, bitch. My name is Trouble!
You are getting on my nerve
It’s time to get what you deserve
You use your words as your shield
But here is the new winner in the field
You may have won before a long time ago
But the winner is here, time to go
Your shield is starting to rust
Excuse me, miss, if you must
Open your eyes, I’m not invisible
You may be strong but I’m invincible
I have my defence for your attack
Your reflection is not you, your mirror is about to crack
You’ll never be the fairest of them all
The guards tell you to head home from the ball
You continue to speak, always in a rush
Shut your mouth right now, hush!
You strut around like you’re the Queen
You talk to boys and make them scream
Your touch is starting to die, no effect
I have my own shield, deflect!
You had the swagger and the style
Let’s be honest, you can only get that for a while
Are you embarrassed? You’ve gone pale
Your words and actions have gone stale
You are nothing but a fool
You may impress but you’ll never rule
So bow down to the new winner
Pray to the Lord, cause girl you’re a sinner
I have won, there is nothing else to tell
Let’s hope you are forgiven, so you don’t go to Hell.