Some Social Media Shutdowns

Lately, I have been feeling so stressed and made an immediate decision to delete some social media accounts because it is making everything so chaotic. It was just one media website after the next. A week ago, I deactivated my Facebook account (again) and completely deleted my previous one before that. I didn’t want to delete the recent one yet because I still want to communicate with people on FB Messenger (plus play games on there). I don’t feel that FB is going to last that long and too be honest I have personally never been fully on board with it anyways. I don’t like documenting my life in that way being an introvert and I don’t really have anything to share or post about- so what’s the point? 

I have also deleted the Snapchat app because I became addicted to the filters and would wake up refreshing the app to update my filter reel lol. I didn’t want to delete it initially and I have been tempted to re-download it again but nah! I deleted it for the same reason as the FB one. I didn’t have any important event happening and it was eating my mobile data anyway so bye bye Snapchat. 

I think deleting some social media accounts will help me focus on my other ones and clear my head of other people’s problems. It will certainly be great for some social media rehab therapy! 

The Cable has SNAPPED!

Today I say goodbye to a trusted cable I have had for nearly three years. It has been an emotional time and year by year, this cable has been plugged into a battery plug for most of its life (apart from times others have borrowed it or times it leaves the room only to go into another room inserted into another plug socket). I have never made a post dedicated to my other two cables because one was a fake and the other didn’t even belong to me. But this cable has been a lead in my life that has energized most of my devices (mainly two) and we have never had a falling out and in all honesty, I will miss it.

But, then again, it survived two and a bit years and it was becoming frail and too bendy to the extent of it nearly breaking at the tip. Plus I should have known it wasn’t going to last that long when I came home and found it had been bandaged with black electrical tape. It only took a month.

Time to now throw another phone charger cable in the bin and say goodbye and reminisce about the amount of charging it did for all my devices. Well…at least until the delivery man brings in my new one then the whole cycle begins again. Who knows maybe this next one will outlive the last (but hopefully it won’t be anytime soon).

The Influence of Women

I felt I needed to write about this not only because I am a woman but because there have been so many times I felt I have been silenced in fear of saying something wrong.

Over the last several months, the world has been discussing the sexual harassment accusations and scandals surrounding some of the most powerful and well-known men of the film industry. Men we have grown up idolizing with posters on our walls, men we have respected for so many years and careers we have followed and still do. Men have run the film industry for many many years and often we discuss men as directors, producers, cameramen, filmmakers and leading actors. Men have been praised for and paid more compared to women. Men get the better roles and to be honest most roles in the film industry. It wasn’t until recently that women have been getting publicity in term of their roles within the industry that is probably down to the topic of gender equality. 

Women have always been the supportive gender, never the leading. Women are expected to look pretty and be objectified because men say so. Women are expected to act in a certain way and never get in the way of men. But with these scandals and all because of a man named Harvey Weinstein, women are rewriting all the things they have never had the courage to do or say because they can. These brave women have been coming forward and finding their voices to talk about the most disgusting, most vile and most sickening things some men have been capable and frankly been allowed to do to them and their bodies. Forceful things. Demeaning things. Things we once thought were too taboo to talk about. Well not anymore. Women have found their voice and they are making a stand and as a woman, I find it so empowering and inspiring that this is happening right now. 

I cannot compare myself to what these women have been subjected to and I will not imagine the horrific things they had to do for men like Weinstein. I am saying that all men are horrible human beings because that would be an exaggeration to mine and other women’s stories. But there have been things in each of their stories that I can relate to. Most of my relationships have been good but I have come out of them as someone I barely recognised and not in a good way. There have been points in my relationships when I have been called a liar because I was 13 and told his friends he showed me his penis and they, of course, took his side. A time when I found out that he had been seeing someone else behind my back like I could be replaced in an instant. The times when I said no and he shakes his head like I’m the one in the wrong. Or when I begged him to stay and he brushed it off and said ‘we’re just not meant to be, you’ll find someone else’ and then comes back 3 months later telling me he loves me and I took him back. I loved them all but looking back, I never realised how dependent I was to hand them over the control, times when I knew I was right but bit my tongue in the fear I will get shut down anyway. I always took the blame and I always took them back because I am willing to compromise my feelings so they’ll stay in the same way these women were petrified in losing their jobs so they chose to compromise also. 

I feel so proud of these women and the change they are making to the world not only in defining gender but defining the power and influence of women. Six months ago, I ended a 4-year relationship with a guy I promised myself would be the one I wanted to marry. It was an amazing relationship and we had our ups and downs but we stuck by each other even though we were 3 hours apart for nearly 3 years. I ended it because he was moving to another country and I had to admit that it was not going to work out. He also told me that I never made effort and I should have taken his money and come visited him. He told me that I am in the wrong and we need to talk about this issue more often. I told him that I wish him good luck, I hope we meet each other again one day and then I broke up with him. I thought I would regret it and I felt so disappointed it ended kind of bitter but honestly, when I woke up the next morning, it was like a huge weight was lifted off me and I smiled so wholeheartedly.

Two months after that, the news about Weinstein came in and floods of women started to speak up and they continue to do so as evidenced by the Golden Globes last night. Six months on, I am writing to you about the influence of women and I can confidently say I made one of the best decisions in my life. I can breathe and laugh and I have never felt more me than I am today.

As Oprah said last night at the Golden Globes ‘A New Day is on the Horizon’ and damn I have a feeling we will see a lot of women in every new day!

 

Condensed Milk Was My Undoing

Since the holiday, I have been eating a lot of things and (without shame) enjoying every bit of it. The holidays have always been the time of the year when I happily enjoy eating a lot and not really caring if I gained weight. But this year there was some worry if I’m going to gain back the weight I lost several months ago. I was alright at Christmas and took care of what I ate but the New Year was like food paradise. I ate every single dish that my mom cooked and within the next two days, I could feel the weight coming back and for the first time, I felt a little bit disappointed that I have gained the weight back so fast as it took me to lose it.

That is why I am so determined to lose it now because knowing me, I will have the ‘there is still tomorrow to start’ mentality. I need to lose this weight now before it gets out of control. I had already started exercising in the mornings with the dumbbells and on the stationary bike but then my stomach and my persistent and easily tempted sweet tooth saw the holy grail of calorie intake staring back at me.

The can of half full condensed milk!

Yes, CONDENSED MILK! It was right there and tempting me to have a spoonful but secretly knowing I will finish a quarter of it in the span of three days. I honestly do not know what came over me and as I write this blog post, I feel so ashamed. I have tried to avoid finishing it and I knew deep down that if I had even a teaspoon, I will get addicted to it! I can put my hand up now and admit to having a slight relapse to eating condensed milk.

But since the New Year’s food is nearly all gone (thank God), the exercise and lessening food intake will also follow and I can lose some weight and feel more healthy again. Wish me luck everyone and here is to a healthy 2018. 

 

Someone Loves You

There are lessons we need to learn
Yet we need the money to earn
So we can buy and we can strive
Living a life to prove we can survive
We grew older wishing we were small
Knowing that every step could lead to a fall
A fall that a kiss or a plaster cannot fix
And then having to inspect our bag of tricks
For a miracle or a hope, for our dream
Why can all we hear is the scream
Of our thoughts crying in pain
Of our hearts going insane
From all the feelings we have suppressed
Then people asking why are we depressed
They don’t understand what goes in our mind
Of all the dangerous moments that follows us behind
How we quiver in conflict and avoid fear
How we fake a smile and stop the tear
That could flood the bath and our lungs
How we drunk the bleach more than once
The times we held a knife or the rope
Praying for a single strand of hope
To take our hand and away from the edge
Of the glass, the pills or the ledge
To tell us that it will be okay
That one day the anxieties will go away
But for now, know that you and I are not alone
Please speak to someone and dial a number on your phone
Yesterday, Today or Tommorrow may not seem fine
But please talk to someone on the suicide helpline.


We all have anxieties and are going through a lot in our lives that can seem overwhelming. Please know that someone loves you and would be happy to listen to whatever you are going through, even if it is some stranger on the phone. There are a lot of information on the numbers you can call to reach the suicide helpline team in your country.

You are not alone, even if it feels like that now. You are loved. 

 

2018 New Year’s Resolutions

I am so sorry that I have been away for so long. As I always say, busy, busy, busy. The last two months of 2017 was so hectic that I have put this blog on the back burner. All the things I wanted to write about have either been half written or have titles and not written at all. So I apologise that I haven’t been as active as I would have liked to be. (end of apology) 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

I cannot believe that we survived 2017 and we are just a few days into 2018. A New Year means a lot of things. The New Year is the time many people will say: NEW YEAR, NEW ME. A time when we will be promising to lose weight, to travel the world or even create a new identity altogether. A time for making resolutions that cannot be resolved or semi-give up on it completely because let’s be honest, how long was it really going to last? 2018 is a new year for a clean slate and where we can do and say and think up new things for another 365 days. 

I have decided to do some resolutions this year because why not? and because I really wanted to get into the spirit of the New Year. I tried to pick resolutions that I know I can do and will actually accomplish. 

  1. Drink more water: I feel that I haven’t been that keen on drinking water (even though that is all I have ever drunk since I was a teenager because I was a good child who didn’t want to break the ‘NO SOFT DRINKS’ rule). I want to drink more water this year because I have heard it makes you have good skin and keeps you hydrated. The goal will be 1 glass when I wake up, 2 glasses after each meal and 1 glass before bed. 
  2. Exercise more: This is kind of linked to losing weight (because I have gained 4 kilos during the Christmas break thanks to my mom’s cooking) and I want to get back into shape and maybe lose more than I had before I gained some back. I am not going to put how often or a certain number to it (yet) but I definitely want to exercise more this year.
  3. Shut down Facebook (again): I had this revelation last year when I gave Facebook up for Lent2017 that I didn’t need FB as much as I thought I did. Plus I really think that Facebook should retire. I know that FB was cool at the start when it was being hyped up to be as big as My Space but now it has been meh! (I don’t even have the app on my devices anymore). Facebook owns other apps (like Instagram) that are fairing more in terms of audience participation and being a social media platform. I aim to shut Facebook down in time for Lent and move on to focus on my other social media accounts. 
  4. More Self Learning: I learnt a lesson from breaking up with someone last year and it is that I still have a lot to learn about myself. I have things to figure out and things I would like to do on my own (without the stress or hassle of having to worry about another person). This year will the year I will fully get to enjoy being single and finding out more about who I am and what I want to become. 
  5. More Blogging: I really want to make an effort to do more blogging and keep improving my blog and getting to meet other bloggers and readers. I think making connections is great and as a person who isn’t into physically travelling I want to still be able to travel but on the internet. I want to meet other people and get more ideas on what to write and just be able to share more undiscovered adventures with everyone.

So. that is my five resolutions for 2018 and hopefully, I will be able to stick to them. I hope you all have a lovely 2018. I am so excited for another year of blogging. 

Peace and Love, 

Trisha xox

Facebook Could Soon Face Extinction

Since coming back to Facebook after my detox for Lent 2017 and making a new account I have noticed a strange atmosphere to how people have been using (or should I say lack of using) the once-hyped social media platform. Back in my high school days, everyone were obsessed with turning 13 because that is the legal age to sign up for a Facebook account (even though most people would lie so they can make a profile even before they turn 13) and it was anticipated and cool once you have make a profile and made a lot of “friends”. I remember a time when my sister cried over the end of the world with the prime reason that she will never get the chance to sign up for Facebook (she hates it now haha).The social media platform took over from MySpace (which seems to be an ancient tale now in the more modern era) and it became a giant amongst other social media sites.

But now forward to present day and here I am more bored than ever with Facebook. No one is no longer on it 24/7 and those that are rarely post anything useful. People only post about major events like holidays or when they get pregnant or tied the knot. The games of FarmVille or Sims have already been forgotten and replaced with games that require you to interact with “friends” that you haven’t spoken to in 5 years. You end up liking random stuff after stuff and would scroll through hundreds of rubbish articles. It has become so repetitive that you groan at the screen every time your well-trained fingers automatically clicks on it. Facebook had tried so hard to keep up with the likes of Snapchat and Instagram when they included filters and Facebook stories (but unfortunately was too late in catching with the trends). I hate to be so pessimistic about this but soon I think Facebook will become extinct.

This will be probably not that surprising when it finally crashes down. Many people have been telling me that they will hardly miss it (even my parents refers to it as the evilest out of all the social media websites). I think Facebook has lived long enough and could very well join MySpace on the dark side of the online world. Give it another two years and maybe soon people will have forgotten this once loved social media phenomenon. I have come to realise that It was probably a bad mistake to make another account if I am just going to delete it again lol. Facebook could soon be joining the dinosaurs.

I mean think about it. Facebook has resulted in asking people for their nudes to ensure that those nude pictures don’t appear on their platform. Someone working at Facebook will be staring at your private areas and playing memory match in an instance that someone else (like a vengeful ex) posts it on Facebook. Think about it carefully.

Facebook will turn 14 next year (a year older than the required age for someone to sign up for the site) and I think it would be a good time for adolescent Facebook to retire or at least take a break.