I’m Glad You Found Someone Else… Cause It Wasn’t Meant To Be.

What I learned from a Job Interview Everyone Else Wanted For Me

Yay, I graduated but now what? The question that goes through my mind (and hopefully other graduates’ minds) once they have walked the stage and gotten that piece of paper. What am I gonna do now that ai have gotten a degree? I hated to think about it but damn, I should have really thought about it sooner. But I have never been a decisive person and making decisions takes a lot of planning. Of course, I have a job now and I really enjoy working there as it is minimum hours and a late start (but it also means minimum wages). As much s you love a job, you also need the money to survive and buy necessities like shaving cream and driving lessons (yes I know, I still haven’t booked those yet but that’s for another blog post!). So, I have been looking at other job options that are part-time that I can do alongside my current job role.

I found several jobs in the local area and out of the ten jobs I applied for, one came to the forefront and we clung to it. The job was at a great location, at a top-notch building and the pay was something anyone would have jumped at. They have shortlisted me and invited me in for an interview. Everyone was very excited and of course, I was too (as well as nervous). They all wanted this job for me and my sister kept telling me “You better at this, Trisha”. But as you know from the title of this blog post, I didn’t get it.

At first, I was disappointed and upset that they didn’t pick me and I couldn’t get the reasons why. I doubted myself and looked up articles on my employers don’t pick you. I looked over my preparation (which wasn’t that great if I’m honest as I had higher priorities in my mind at the time) and then looked at alternative scenarios I could have done differently. Maybe I should have been selfish and focused on my interview preparation rather than spending my time making Vanessa’s surprise birthday as best as she deserves to have. Maybe if I didn’t spend so much money on it, I wouldn’t be looking for another job or maybe I should have forfeited my own sister’s happiness so I can get a job that pays more. But I know deep down, I didn’t want that. Vanessa deserves a lot (even if she is mean sometimes) and I won’t ever sacrifice someone’s happiness just so I can have more money. After all, happiness or money doesn’t grow on trees and money doesn’t make you happy, your family does.

Besides, as good as the job sounded it probably wouldn’t have lasted anyways because I know that this was the first interview where I showed my true self. I shared my opinions and was the most talkative I have ever been in my job interviews so far. I answered the questions with honesty and creatively. I admitted my faults and highlighted my ability to be humble and approachable. But in the end, my lack of customer experience and skills let me down. Well (not to sound bitter or salty) but I think that it really wasn’t meant to be and I am so relieved that they found the right person to suit that position and it wasn’t me.

After I got the rejection email, I stared at it and I felt disappointed that I didn’t get it and the first thing I thought was that “you idiot Trisha! You let them down”. I was so upset that my family will be upset but deep down I ended up crying in relief because as much as they would have wanted me to have that job, in truth I didn’t want it. So it didn’t matter what went wrong or what I could have done differently because a part of me knew I wasn’t going to be happy there. This was just like a relationship that you tried to make work but you knew that it wasn’t the highest priority so you clung onto it hoping it will work out in the end but it just wasn’t meant to be. You go through what went wrong and you come to the conclusion that if they are not going to appreciate you for qualities you have then thank the Lord, he didn’t will for it to continue any further and you can move on.

This was definitely a learning experience and I will wholeheartedly take all their feedbacks on board. I wish them all the best. As much as this may cause some sadness, I’m glad I didn’t allow myself to settle for something far less than I deserve.

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